Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Tomorrow is my birthday

I never usually make a big deal about my birthday since I had bad experiences when I was younger, but I think I'm finally getting over it! It's my birthday week and I'm excited for it! This is my first birthday that Lex will get to be there other than in my tummy. So much has changed it a year and I can hardly believe it. Yesterday Lex turned 7 months old! I can't believe how fast time is flying! One day she will be standing on a chair cooking with me in the kitchen! Speaking of the kitchen, I made pretzel rolls for the first time yesterday and they turned out soooooo yummy!

For my birthday, I'm making the Paula Deen Cut the Calories Coconut cream pie plus whatever dessert that Josh wants. We are celebrating his and my birthdays tomorrow. (is that correct grammar? It looks weird) Also watched an episode of extreme couponing and I have no idea how they do that. I think that  someone needs to do everything for me and I will just give them my list and go with them Ha ha ha ha! 

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Losing the Battle

Ever feel like you are fighting a battle you can't win? I am. I feel like I'm in a black hole looking for light and there isn't any. Do I just keep wandering around until I find the light somewhere? It feels like its much easier to give up. I don't know how much strength I have left. I don't know how much longer I can keep fighting. Must. Keep. Moving. WHY???? Why does this keep happening??? One trial after the next and they aren't getting easier! They are only harder to fight! I don't feel like I have recovered from one trail before the next one comes! Is there hope?? Someday will life get better??? Or is it just going to be one trial after the next? Always downs. There's never ups and downs it seems. I would love to see an up. Just one! Even if its just a teensy up!

Just opened my Bible on my phone and this is the verse of the day. "Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good; his love endures forever." 1 Chronicles 16:34

What if I don't feel like giving thanks??? I don't know what to give thanks for at this point. Well here it goes. 
1. Thanks God for the roof over my head.
2. Thanks that I get to stay home and raise my daughter.
3. Thank you that we have just enough money to make it.
4.Thank you for a beautiful daughter.
5. Thank you for my husband.
6. Thank you for my family.
7. Thank you for modern conveniences.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012


Last night I had a lot of fun with Amy, Heather, Jennifer and my mom. We went out to BJ's (which if you haven't tried it, shame on you.) and I got to have some adult time! It was lovely! Can't wait to do it again. It was just what I needed at the right time.

8 days until I'm 24. Where has time gone? Next year I will be able to say I'm in my mid 20's. Again, where has time gone? In 6 days Lex will be 7 months old! When did that happen??? Ugh, she's growing up too fast! I feel like so much has happened in 7 months. I don't know if I can say that for any other time in my life other than when I was pregnant. This is the fastest time has flown! WOW! Don't know what I will fix for dinner tonight. I guess I will have to wait for inspiration to hit me! Happy Wednesday!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Happy Birthday Mom!

It's Mom's birthday! Happy Birthday Mom! I love you!!!! 9 days after my Mom celebrated her birthday (24 years ago) I was born! There are so many birthdays in October! It's crazy! Wanna know why????? We were all conceived around New Years! Ha ha ha ha! I guess that's when people start getting board in the winter!

I tried curry last night for the first time and love the taste. I made fried chicken for Monday night dinner and put some curry powder in with the other seasonings for the chicken and it turned out well! I'm gonna have to get some on the next paycheck!!!!! Oh so many things to experiment with! I also got Marscapone cheese to try. I haven't tried it yet. First I will try it plain and then I will try it in a recipe! I got to see Taken 2 over the weekend and it was pretty good. It was a little predictable because if you have see the first one you know what he's capable of but all in all a good movie!  

Monday, October 8, 2012


Lexi said "da-da" for the first time on Friday. She's still working on mama which ends up "vah-vah" but I will take it. She's growing up so fast I can hardly believe it. I'm going to start doing new things and step out of my comfort zone. I'm going to try calling one of my cousins (if its still her number) to see if I can get ahold of my other cousin. I have been wanting to contact him for years and we talked to him a while back but that was before I was married and had a child. It takes guts to step out and do those things and I'm tired of living in the "what if..." and I want to do something about it. I may try to call this evening if I can. If not, I will do it Wednesday. 

List of things I want to do:
1. Call my Cousin

Well I will add more things to this list as they come up. Ha ha ha I guess I didn't think that all the way though. On the menu tonight is fried chicken, mashed potatoes, gravy, and blueberry coconut coffee cake muffins. I have tried the muffins and boy are they good!!!!!!! : )

Thursday, October 4, 2012


Fall is here! I like fall! Its the rain that I don't like! Yes, I know its Oregon but the rain can be so depressing especially when we have so much of it. Another thing I didn't like about fall was the fact that it was too cold to go grill outside and at this point I would have to take Lex outside with me to grill, but now there's a solution!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BROILING!!!!!! I made steaks last night and for the FIRST TIME EVER I made myself a medium steak and Josh a medium rare steak! I can't wait to do burgers! Oh my gosh this has just opened up my world. Tonight I'm doing chicken! 

Fall. I think of hot chocolate, warm soups, football season, birthdays...etc. So many things. Its my bestie's birthday today! Happy birthday Court! Can't believe you're 24 and I CAN'T WAIT to see what 24 brings for you! You have no idea!!! Hey Court, I was thinking that we should start looking for our mansion to move into together! I can even watch your kids and my kids and they can grow up together! I at the very least expect if we outlive our husbands we are going to find a house together and be 2 crazy old ladies that get the cops called on us because we are making so much noise and making fun of the neighbors and playing "you team" at the age of 90! Seriously!

Tomorrow is Friday and the time Lex and I get to spend with Nonnie! I'm quite excited! We didn't get to spend time together last weekend! Also, I'm excited for the game on Saturday! GO DUCKS! Win The Day!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Fall, Grandparents, and learning new things!

Wow! I haven't blogged in a quite a bit! This past weekend Josh, Lex and I went to visit his grandparents in Washington. Its always fun to go but this time was different because we had Lex. Having a baby adds so much more responsibility to your life! I don't regret having her one bit it just makes some things harder. We didn't get much sleep because Lex didn't like sleeping in her play pin/bassinet. The last night we were there Josh got a combined total of 4 hours of sleep and I got a combined total of 5. It was rough! And car trips are no longer a walk in the park. When we went before, we may have had to stop once to use the restroom but this time we had to stop for a couple times and let Lex stretch her legs and just be out of the car seat. Luckily on the way back she slept for three quarters of the trip! Which was DEFINITELY A GOOD THING because she was so crabby. I totally understand though because she was (and still is) teething really bad and she wasn't feeling good because of it, she didn't have her own bed in her own room (which I think was harder on us LOL), and she wasn't at home in her normal routine. All in all it was good to see Josh's grandparents and get to spend time with them hanging out and playing Mexican Train!

I can totally tell its fall now! For the first time in a while (especially because I was pregnant and not super cold) I am wearing a sweatshirt and sweats! It feels comfy! In my opinion, a sweatshirt (just for lounging around the house) should be big and like you can wrap your whole body in it if necessary! I can't believe we will be celebrating our first Thanksgiving, CHRISTmas, and New Years with Lexi this year! Soon after that she will be a year old! I can't believe how fast time is flying! I feel like just yesterday we brought her home from the hospital and how overly emotional I was! That night I was introduced to Impractical Jokers which gave me something to laugh about after being so emotionally exhausted and tired!

Last night I did something new! I have always seen the broiler setting on my oven and never really used it! I used it last night to cook Josh some chicken. OH MY GOSH! I will never ever go back! How the heck did I not know about this little treasure! Seriously! I'm going to do steak next and see if I can make myself a medium steak! Which by the way would be the first time ever! I always over cook it! You have NO idea how excited I am! I am loving trying new things. Who knows what else is in store for me!